My mother should be an author
She carves her soul into millions of pieces
Leaving it behind in all of the family photos
When I see my mother
I see a woman
Who wants to hide her soul in a needle
Just so the screaming can stop in her mind,
These bottles are rattling in the living room
You see they have put shackles on her heart,
She can’t love anymore
Without having vodka in her water bottle.
Where is she hiding her beer?
I feel like my mother is giving me a scavenger hunt
From the shards of glass
That were left on the baseball fields
My mother used to take me to.
You know she always wasn’t like this
She was strong minded and had a big heart
Tonight I will tell you the story of a woman
Who lost her soul to the Keystones, to the Miller Lites
To the Bloody Marys.
Let’s rewind time
See how to kill the soul in ten years
10- I look into my mother’s eyes and I start to cry
Because I’m looking at a woman
Who I don’t know anymore
9- I refused to bail her out of jail again
Because I’m afraid her kidney will fail
If she drinks again
8- My mother staggered into the theater
And disrupted the whole play,
My cast mates turned to me and asked,
Isn’t that your mother?
7- I had to hold my mother’s hand
Because she was throwing up
The cocktail of drugs and alcohol
6- Daddy had to get mom out of jail
She was drinking again
5- My mother throws the bottle across the room
And told me the reason why she drinks
Is because I’m Autistic
4- My mother overslept for my piano recital,
I didn’t think it was a big deal
But I remember she spent the whole night crying
With a wine glass in her hand.
3- Mommy I didn’t know your prescription
Came in a needle
2- Mommy the prescription say 2 pills a day
Why are you taking 6?
1- My mother went to the doctor
Found out that she has Rheumatoid Arthritis
I don’t know what that means,
But I know she will still be strong right?
0- She took me to a Dodger game for my birthday.
I remember Sammy Sosa
Hitting a home run that game
She told me
That the only person that can kill your soul