Looking at my reflection I see a shadow of the girl I used to be. Someone who was once so carefree has turned out to be, one who is broken infinitely.
Someone who once was so strong. She is searching for the place where she can belong. Hiding behind a fake smile. She cries every night for quite a while. She prays to the heavens and begs and pleads. God please help me get back to me.
I see all the changes that have come with time…how broken and shattered I’ve become in my mind. The reflection in the mirror is a sad reminder. If I looked for this girl where would I find her.
I miss her smile and the way she laughed but that is just a thing of the past. Her light has grown dim and her heart has turned cold, because of the lies that she’s been told.
What once was beautiful has turned so dark. Now she just sits and stares with her broken heart. She opens her eyes as if it were a dream. Hoping that things aren’t as they seem.
Her eyes are swollen from all of her tears. She feels so much pain after all of these years. She used to dance and spin around. Like her feet could never touch the ground.
She tries to remember to love herself. It’s hard to do when no one else will. She continues to hide from what she sees. Telling herself this just can’t be me. I can’t be fading away so fast.
Telling herself this too shall pass. The reflection of who she sees is just her imagination. She needs to be free. Free from all that holds her down. Makes her feel like a clown.
Free from all her hurt and pain. Free to be herself again. The one who brings the room to life. The one who makes the darkness light. The one who makes everyone smile. She just wants to be free for a while.