I lie in the shadows of my dreams while I wish upon a star.
My star is faith.
I have faith in God, yet I still cry my dirty cries.
I am alone in the mellow of the night.
I am fragile in the morning light.
But, I am destined to find my happiness.
I catch a rotation of cramps in my stomach; butterflies are what the old folks say.
I am nervous in despair, frightened by my own life.
I fear disappointment, I fear dishonesty.
I am corrupted in my daily lifestyle looking out on the edge of God’s grace.
“I fear no evil,” they all say but evil has taken me.
Evil has wrapped me so tight in its fur, how do I escape?
I rock in a steady beat and cry out wet tears.
I speak upon myself “evil in me, evil in me.”
Anger is all I feel, anger is all I have.
Self pity rocks me to sleep while confusion wakes me.
I am alone in my room and I fear my dreams.
All I see is hope and courage but where is it leading me?
I wonder all day is my life over and not a single time can I answer myself, but God knows best and he hears my cries.
God washes away all of my tears, forgives me for all of my sins, and cleanse me with his unchanging hand.
I think of the moments I think of the years.
My future is what I look upon because my future is brighter than me.
A sudden glaze in the air, an armor shield does not protect my heart.
But, I am yet destined to find happiness.
Despair has taken over, love is fading, and time is running out but I am destined to find happiness.
Cracks appear on the walls of my bedroom from a fist of hatred.
Things are rearranged in my bedroom, but I am destined to find happiness.
My life is upside down but in progress of repair.
I hear no sudden sounds and finally I fear no evil because I have yet found my true happiness.