The shadows of you continuously haunt me.
They are always reflecting the person you made me, the person I didn’t want to become…
It has almost been a year since you left, and yet your demons, that I so foolishly allowed into my heart, still linger.
If I had only been wiser… if I had only known better…
I look at myself in the mirror, and I am absolutely disgusted.
When you left, I saw no amount of humanity remaining.
All that was left was a terrified Beast, seeking only her primal desires.
You brought demons and desires into my life that shouldn’t have been three yet.
And now, I can’t even manage to be affectionate with my new love without being scared that the Beast will unleashed.
He has heard of you and of my Beast, but there is no certainty that he will stay with me if he saw the Beast.
Can you truly see what you have done to me?
I used to write poems of love for you, but through my beastly eyes, I see you only deserve words of hate.
Now, only my new love can be my redeeming grace.
Now, only the gracious Lord can erase my sins committed with you.
So, leave my mind now, you lingering shadow.
Be exercised from my fragile and healing heart.
Stop plaguing my thoughts of my past, my present, and my future.
Let me gain my humanity again.
Let me be released from your forsaken clutches.
With all that is within me, I want you to vanish.
Bother some other poor girl, one who doesn’t care about being transformed, like you transformed me.
Leave me be so all I have left of you is the Beast within.