Knock knock knock,
I opened the door
Some girl named Crystal was on my front porch.
I asked what she wanted, she said “may I come in? I have a surprise for you,” then flaunted her little white bag.
“You want some?” She says. “It’ll make you feel better & take away the problems you have.”
I shrugged my shoulders & looked at the glass, “wow are those diamonds?” Glamorous, I may add.
So I lit a lighter & melted the ice.
I looked up & realized it was just me & the pipe. “Crystal where did you go?” Oh who cares, I can go score my own dope. So quickly from one beer, to smoking crystal meth. I jumped on a scale, and began to see death. I looked in the mirror & saw the Devil’s breath. Who was I becoming? I asked myself. Then a small voice in my head said “I will love you until the end.” So I trusted you & thought you were my best friend. Then I found myself needing you one day, & you were nowhere to be found. I was laying on the hospital bed when I cried out for you, wishing I was dead. You said you’d be there, but those were all lies. You were by my side for 3 months, now it’s good bye..
It’s been 9 months since I’ve seen you. I thought about you a lot, I even thought about you when I saw a rock in the park. The beginning was hell, I’d wake up sweating & shaking. My hands would go numb at the thought of you breaking. I didn’t think I could live with out you, but oh man was I wrong. You’ve taught me so much, especially how to stay strong. I’ll admit it, we had a great time, but I never in my life could’ve been more blind. I thought I needed you, even though all you did was play with my mind. There’s been times when I really needed you by my side, but I remembered that night when we first said goodbye. I didn’t want to say hello again, I didn’t even want to be friends. Whenever you came close, I would push you away. I had to keep my faith.
I’m happy now, more than I’ve ever been. I have my old life back, my real family & friends. They support me to stay away from you. They want me to stay clean. It’s hard when you are all that I dream. I loved you once, I’d love you again, but now there’s no way I would stick myself with a syringe. I’m sober, yes I fiend, but this life now, is way better clean.