Family Encounters

Family Encounters prose poem

Photo by Lars Plougmann

Father passed on nearly ten years before I got married
He was not there when I finished high school
Nor was he around when I finished college
My youngest sibling was nine months
There was a period of grief at his passing;
But then survival demands appeared and said,
“Let there be life”, and I moved on

At the time, his absence never bothered me
I learned to live without him; to leap from boy to man
I never accused or charged him for dying too soon; or did I?
I never blamed him for the pains and the wounds; or did I?
There were signs that he was becoming a better person to live with;
But I don’t really know how I would have differed had he lived longer

I learned many years later that I subconsciously shut him out; I shouldn’t have.
I charged him for things he did, and accursed him for things he shouldn’t have done.
Without mercy, I sentenced and banished him and all that he represented.
But I shouldn’t have.
Subconsciously, I reacted to his negative ways, but it was too late.
There were things I did not know, and other things I never considered.
I silently, without fuss or fight, without sufficient evidence, shut him out

Yes, I rendered him unimportant and irrelevant; Anything positive was blocked out,
Never rising to an appreciative level
It would take years to even realize this
Yes, father was dead physically, but he deserved a kind memory
However, for years, I was as if frozen, silent,
and unable to remember anything of value

But then it happened!! Twelve years ago at a family reunion,
a younger sister spoke well of our father and set me straight.
She spoke of things I never knew of the man whose memory I
had crushed, and whose influence I thought that I could live without.
It was like a reunion with my long deceased father; and as if I was
given a second encounter with him. I tell you, I forgave him and consciously
Let his influence and memory be back into my life; and I am the better for it.

Rate the poem
1 Star2 Stars3 Stars4 Stars5 Stars (1 votes, average: 3.00 out of 5)
We are posting your rating...

Have something to say about the poem?

Profile photo of curtisjohnsonsr

curtisjohnsonsr

Signup / Login to follow the poet.
I am a retired minister and the husband of Barbara for 42 years. We reside in Sacramento ,Ca. We have two sons and a daughter, and we are the proud grandparents of 6 children.
Poems you will love

Give your feedback / review for the poem

Be the First to Comment & Review poem!

Notify of
avatar
wpDiscuz

One Family

One Family short poem

I dwell in a hut, down, under the shade of that tree, You stay in a nest, up, on the branch of that same tree Thinking thoughtfully over thoughts – a while; See every reason to Believe and reveal…., Dear

Family

Family short poem

Family. That’s what we’ve grown to be. From once not knowing each other’s names, To all being able to take the blame. The past 3 years, We’ve grown to become who we are, From the people that surround us. Our

A Family Dust

A Family Dust short poem

A thirsty town fails, harvesting the moon, and turns into a vast lake of tears. They were fighting for their right to remain poor and hungry. It was a fractured amnesia in the pit of flesh. Was it a pink

Beauty Of Our Family History

Beauty Of Our Family History short poem

Open Imagination flew from my hands bringing sunlight into play Rapture of fire beams flew across the crop planted in the fields Love was a place I knew nothing about It did come within my parents Each had been an

Family Allowance

Family Allowance long poem

Today I smiled as a memory came through, Remembering how I got angry with you, I climbed onto the counter, 8 years old, Never one to do as I was told. I wanted something in a cupboard so high, I