Cancer In My Veins

Cancer In My Veins long poem

Photo by erix!

An earthquake in my hearts’ kingdom
Peaks and troughs,patterns were random
Nurses making the fastest moves
Trying to fill my cancerian grooves
Blackening my last scarlet blood drop
Weakening my smooth breaths’ rope
I felt the cracks in closed,transparent, glass doors
Questioning the suspense in hospitals’ corridors
I asked the graceful death angel
To give a few moments to burning of life’s candle

From cell to cell,it is spreading
The leaves of a spring tree shedding
Inside me,some story is happening
Gradually and quietly ,I am realizing
I can feel it in my veins
I can taste it in my blood
CANCER in my veins!
CANCER in my blood

Lying hopeless on deaths’ bed
“Strong young man!”, My doctor said
My eyes keep darting around the door
Every moment, people appearing, in and out
With every single knock my heart beats shout
Examining the butterfly outside the window
Weaving the thoughts in colours of rainbow
Fighting each second with the dark shadow
I am the CANCER patient
I have cancer in my eyes
I have cancer in my hair

My mother ponders if I am ill
With high fever, rigors and chill
My siblings assuming it as a dramatic thrill
My father tensed when encountering me still
They don’t know how quietly the cancer kills!
waiting for the call, when life will shatter
Life worth the soul, it’s the death that matter

Connecting my soul with the body,those dull breathings
Gradually and carefully my cancer heart is beating
My hair,substracting ,day by day
I started liking the smell of clay
With the sunken,yellow eyes
With the weak,lean structure
With the young man equipped with instruments
Gulping the loads of tasteless medicines
With the slightest light ray
Gradually and fearfully my heart is beating
I am the cancer patient
Meet me in oncology ward
With tulip flowers and get well card

Drop by drop, it’s multiplying
Helpless,my few desires are crying
Painful,internal,my beauty is dying
Angel of death,nearby, is flying
Ready, to take me away
Life and death will play
Life is for once, equal for death
Cancerian will combat till last breath
Experiencing the painful chemotherapy sessions
Keeping alive the dying thirst of young passions
Memories are only left
Ready to jump of the cleft

My eyes never blink at night
I fear to lose this lovely sight
That wrong no for Mr Right
Cancer awakes,progressing its flight
I am dark and new day is more bright
Every moment, I am losing my light
Bearing the cancer in my veins
The false blood , my heart drains
Drenched I am,all over with it
Blood is showering, the cancer rains!
The slightest hope engraves within me
The wish to live once again
To celebrate my 22nd birthday
Like a normal,healthy young man
The dimmest light transports me
To assume a piece of dreamland
To live old moments once again
To revive the late night club
To rebuild the love with Lora
Her pinkish cheeks,I used to rub
Her tearful eyes have a solid reason
Perhaps,she knows my cancer season
Blood showering, the cancer rains
My buddies gossiping, pointing at me
Empowering me to join the trip
My mother staring at the flowing drip
Feeling her trembling hands on my lips
One,two and three…my heart beat skips
Different beloved faces around my bed
I was surprised for their eyes were red
I have cancer in my veins

Rate the poem
1 Star2 Stars3 Stars4 Stars5 Stars (1 votes, average: 3.00 out of 5)
We are posting your rating...

Have something to say about the poem?

Profile photo of Fatima Masood

Fatima Masood

Signup / Login to follow the poet.
I am pharmacy student ...recently studying in quaidiazam university...am from pakistan......i believe life as the transition between the soul and the body ...try to penetrate your soul and your life would be Spiritual all over!
Poems you will love

Give your feedback / review for the poem

4 Comments on "Cancer In My Veins"

Notify of
avatar
Sort by:   newest | oldest
J.rid
Member

What a poem my heart was tugged by every line. I watched a lifelong friend die with this disease and that is what I imagined it to be like for her and the many people I met on her journey. I used to go into chemo ward with her and all fake—brave smiles I saw. My heart broke for them all. How Lucky i am I thought. Your brilliant poem brought all these memories flooding back.
Sometimes only rarely do we encounter the soul of a departed person—-are we even meant to?

Nikita Mehendiratta
Member

I don’t have words to describe feelings. Exceptionally great work Fatima.

Geetha Paniker
Member

I can relate to the cancer in the cell…veins….one who goes through knows it … great poem.

wpDiscuz

My Only Friend

My Only Friend short poem

Am I Alive, or am I dead? Is this all just a dream inside my head? I feel like I’m losing my grip. Quick say something, anything before I slip. Nightmares slowly creeping. Has he finally come to do the

From My Journals ‘love’

From My Journals love short poem

The very essence of love is uncertain, A relentless thumping of the heart. I must speak to you by such means as they are within my reach. He pierces my soul driving me into madness. I am half agony, half

My Friend Crystal

My Friend Crystal long poem

I am the women that hasn’t been able to lose all her baby weight. I am the dad that works two jobs and always gets home late. I am the high school cheerleader trying to be someone shes not. I

From My Journals ‘anxiety’

From My Journals anxiety prose poem

The moon awaits eagerly in the same pedestal it ignited my passion. What lips, my lips have kissed, are long forgotten. The memories easily quickened as a few puddles along the way I voluntarily stepped in. What arms have lain

From My Journals ‘cinnamon’

From My Journals cinnamon prose poem

He saw things in a way that others did not, he was the only one that saw my dreams differently, I became beautiful with the light of his smiling eyes. There my soul drifted render in angle to give the